Terrace House: Tokyo 2019-2020 Cast Members React To Hana Kimura's Death

Following the news of the sudden death of Hana Kimura, the 22-year-old professional wrestler and fan favourite of Netflix’s Terrace House: Tokyo 2019-2020 on Saturday, the cast members of the reality drama have turned to social media to share their memories with her.

Kimura was reportedly found dead at her home, with the cause not immediately revealed. Her last few posts on social media — including grisly pictures of self-mutilation and one message that says “goodbye” — suggested that she had been cyber-bullied.

A Terrace House group on Reddit has compiled a list of responses in English (translated from Japanese) from Kimura’s cast-mates as well as other ‘residents’ from previous instalments. Here, we run reactions from five members who have been with her on the show along with their original Instagram posts.

Meanwhile, according to the show’s official website, Netflix Japan has suspended two episodes, ‘43rd Week’ and ‘44th Week’, which are scheduled to drop on May 26 and June 2, respectively. Fuji TV, too, will not go ahead with airing an episode on May 25.

The production of the current season is on hiatus due to the COVID-19 pandemic. But with the government planning to lift the state of emergency as early as next week, there’s no word on how soon filming will resume.

I should have given more consideration to her feeling. We could've understand each other rather than being stubborn. If I could have express my honest feelings I could have better understanding of her feelings. I should've listened to her when she needed that. If I could've focus on her good side, our relation could've fixed. I remember time when we went out to hot spring, when you cooked me food when I was feeling down from my injuries, winning your title match, when house members booed us for renting a boring horror movie, when you came to support my basketball game. She left this world before we fixed our relationship. Ive been trying to live my life without regretting my own action, but now I am thinking all day what would've happen if I could tell her Hey what's up Hana? lets be friend again, lets hung out!

I am not a celebrity or anything but just an athlete. I knew that hate comments would come when I entered the terrace house. There are people who told me to suck it up because that's the outcome of being famous. But is it really true? I am getting hate comments here and there every single day but I try to not care. But there are people who cannot do that. Every single Terrace House members see the comments and suffer from that, and everybody should understand that. I just don't understand how can people do that to someone that they've never met before. Do you think you are a perfect human being? Do you know that people are putting their best effort to live their life? You don't know the past that we've been through. Even now at this moment I still see hate comments. Just stop and have your life.

Rest in paradise Hana

I've been (lately) watching all of the videos and photos of our memories together. That smile (remembering Hana's smile), I can't keep calm. I want to disappear from this world once. Please, someone say that all of this is just a bad dream or an episode of 13 Reasons Why (the tv show) When I wake up from this dream, I want you (Hana) to be there near my bed Come back, hug me and say Vivi! again. I love you, so please do not leave me. I beg of you, please come back.

Hana, I am so sorry that I could not save you.

It's painful/hard to not be able to see/meet you again

That night, I just happened to be up late, so I saw her post on her story and casually replied as usual. We spoke for a bit, but something felt off, like she was not her usual self, and then she stopped replying entirely. I got worried and then saw her posts on Twitter, and rushed to her house. Unfortunately, when I got there, she was not there, so I rushed to the hospital. At the hospital, I saw a completely different person. On my way there, a part of me had believed that she was still alive. And even if she was ok, I still wanted to give her a big hug and let her know that there are people who will run to her side, that the only place she can hurt herself is inside the ring.

We had plans to go on a trip together once she leaves the house, to drink together until we’re completely wasted, and to catch up over a meal soon. When I was on Terrace House, I also received a lot of heartless comments and was deeply hurt, which many of you probably saw broadcasted. “This is just part of being on TV.” “Die.” “Get out and leave.” Lots of people said things like this to me. But those in the public eye are still people with real feelings. Words can truly be weapons. It’s not a matter of those in the public eye having to know what they’re getting into, or being too mentally weak.

We need to get rid of the idea that you can say anything about someone just because they’re famous. No matter how hard I grieve, she’s never coming back. I can’t see her smile. We can’t get meals together. I can’t forget what she looked like in her last moments. I was devastated to see her like that, and I still don’t wanna believe it.

Hana, we fought sometimes. But we also had lots of fun, going shopping and watching movies together. We goofed around together, and also supported one another. You looked so cool and tough when you were wrestling, but when it came to dating and romance, you were so adorable. It’s devastating to think I can never see you again. I hope you are resting easy. Please take care. No one can hurt you now. Thank you for coming into my life. I’m sorry I couldn’t help you.

Rest In Peace.

To Hana,

When I received the news of your passing, I was in a state of shock and at a loss of words. This feeling hasn't passed yet. I'm aghast by this sudden farewell. I remember talking at Line when I saw your matches for the first time, and how they strongly moved me.

Even at Ametalk, 2 weeks ago, I would hear from female wrestlers they would like to be just like you. How they really wanted to see more of you. The last time we ever talked was one week ago. This is heartbreaking. Truly heartbreaking. I will never be able to forget the beautiful flower who blossomed, petal by petal, on the ring.

Rest in peace. I cannot say farewell. I'd rather say see you soon . I pray that your soul will find peace, wherever you are.

Tupas

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Singapore Association for Mental Health: 1800-283-7019

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