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Johnny Depp Claims He Lost “Nothing Short Of Everything” Following Amber Heard Abuse Allegations

Johnny Depp claimed he has lost "nothing less than everything" since being accused of domestic abuse.

Johnny Depp claimed he has lost "nothing less than everything".

Depp, 58, is currently suing ex-wife Amber Heard for defamation relating to an essay she wrote in 2018 for The Washington Post, in which she described herself as a "public figure representing domestic abuse" and though the article doesn't mention him by name, the Black Mass star has argued it refers to allegations she made after they split in 2016.

Taking to the stand at Fairfax County Court on Wednesday (Apr 20), Depp — who is being countersued by Heard — claimed it doesn't matter what verdict the civil trial reaches as he has been "done" since the Aquaman actress first made accusations against him.

Asked what he has lost following the publication of the essay, he said: "Nothing less than everything.

"When the allegations were made [and] rapidly circling the globe, telling people I was a drunken cocaine-fuelled menace who beat women — suddenly in my 50s — it’s over. You’re done.

"So what did it do to me? What effect did it have on me? I put it to you this way, no matter the outcome of this trial, the second the allegations were made against me, the accusations, the second that more and more metastasised and turned into fodder for the media, once that happened, I lost then."

He added: "That is to say, I lost because that is not a thing that anyone is just going to put on your back for a short period of time. I will live with that for the rest of my life because of the allegations and because it was such a high-profile case.

"So I lost then, no matter the outcome of this trial. I’ll carry that for the rest of my days. It never had to be that way. It never had to happen, and I don’t quite understand why it did in the way that it did.”

Depp recalled feeling "taken aback a bit" when he discovered Heard had filed for a domestic violence restraining order against him in the wake of the split and felt "ill" as the allegations against him circulated across the globe.

He added: “It controlled my every waking second, from the moment I woke up to the moment I dropped."

Depp said his attorneys encouraged him not to fight Heard’s allegations during the divorce, including a joint statement that was released saying “neither party has made false accusations for financial gain.”

On Wednesday, Depp also insisted he had "never" assaulted his ex-wife and went into detail about their explosive arguments, including one which led to the tip of his finger being severed.

He gave an account of a confrontation between them in Australia in March 2015, which stemmed from Depp's suggestion they sign a post-nuptial agreement.

After speaking to a lawyer about the document, Depp claimed his then-wife became "irate" and "was possessed", prompting him to lock himself into various rooms to escape her.

But when he emerged to get a drink of vodka, he claimed Heard threw bottles at him, and the second hit his digit, taking off the tip, though he didn't feel any pain at first.

He said: “I felt heat and I felt as if something were dripping down my hand and then I looked down and realised that the tip of my finger had been severed. I was looking directly at my bones sticking out and the meaty portion of the inside of your finger.

“Blood was just pouring out and at that point I think that I went into some sort of… I don’t know what a nervous breakdown feels like but that’s probably the closest I’ve ever been. Nothing made sense and I knew in my mind and in my heart, this is not life. This is not life. No one should have to go through this.

“I started to write… in my own blood on the walls little reminders from our past that essentially represented lies that she had told me and lies that I had caught her in and amongst all the madness I would again hide in a bathroom or whatever… All the bones were crushed and it looked like Vesuvius.”

Depp went to hospital but told medics he had smashed his finger in accordion doors.

Depp — whose gruesome injury was shown to jurors in pictures — also claimed Heard had stubbed out a cigarette on his face during the argument, and in separate incidents, he alleged the she had pretended he had broken her nose and feigned another attack while on the phone to her friend.

Johnny Depp not feeling very well after his finger was severed in 2015

Gruesome: At the defamation trial against ex-wife Amber Heard on Wednesday (Apr 20), graphic photos of Johnny Depp’s severed fingertip were submitted as evidence. Depp told Fairfax County Circuit Court a handle of vodka thrown by Heard shattered and severed the tip of his finger tip during a fight the couple had in Australia in March 2015.


He accused Heard of attacking him in his office, and their heads connected, though he insisted he never made contact with her face.


He claimed she left the room and then returned clutching a red-stained tissue and said: "Way to go, Johnny, you broke my nose."

But shortly afterwards, he claimed: “I pulled the Kleenex out of the trash bin, and I inspected it pretty closely and realised it was nail polish, nail varnish.”

Depp decided to file for divorce on the same day his mother, Betty Sue Palmer, died in May 2016, and the following day he met with Heard for the final time at their Los Angeles home, during which he claimed she phoned a friend and pretended the actor was beating her.

He told the court: " 'Stop hitting me, Johnny!' she’s screaming in her best freaked out, upset voice."

Depp also recounted the infamous incident when "human fecal matter" was discovered on their marital bed, admitting his first instinct was to "laugh".

He had left their house after a big row with Heard on her 30th birthday but wanted to return to retrieve his belongings while the Danish Girl star was at Coachella.

However, security advised against him going to the property, showing him a photo of the bedroom.

He recalled: "On my side of the bed was human fecal matter. I laughed. It was so outside, it was so bizarre and so grotesque that I could only laugh.”

And he refused to believe Heard's claim one of her dogs had defecated in the bed.

He said: "I lived with those dogs for many years. That did not come from a dog. It just didn't."

Depp will return to the stand on Thursday (Apr 21) for Heard's team to continue their cross-examination, which began towards the end of the day on Wednesday. — BANG SHOWBIZ

Photo: TPG News/Click Photos


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